Haitian Thoughts on a Monday.

Friday, my team and I will head into Cap Haitian, Haiti with Doug Holliday. This is a trip that I am looking forward to for the year with much apprehension and excitement and it's all coming to a head today.

I'm apprehensive...
...because it's my first trip outside of the country.
I'm excited...
...because I know that it is a huge moment of obedience for me.
I'm apprehensive...
...because I'm leading a team of students. How does that not cause some apprehension?!
I'm excited...
...becasue I'm going to be witness of some things that I know are going to be "life moments" for many of these students.
I'm apprehensive...
...because I haven't been able to think straight today and have been bombarded by the lies of the Devil.
I'm excited...
...because I've been told, believe and know that this means something big is about to happen.

I'd be lying if I said I've got it all together in regards to this trip.
I'd be lying if I said I am completely confident in myself on this trip.
I'd be lying if I said I think everything is going to be amazing.

I'd also be lying if I said that my faith in God is being increased like 10 fold because of this trip.
I'd also be lying if I said that I wasn't completely confident in what God is going to do in and through me and in and through my team on this trip.
I'd also be lying if I said I shouldn't go on this trip.

He is faithful.
He is in control.
He is making me ready; Every day as the trip approaches.

God show me your heart.
God give me a confidence not in ourselves but in your Power.
God show me how to lead confidently and the way that you wish to see this team move.

I know I am SO not.
But I know I know I AM.

GC